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Sunday, June 21, 2009 Y

E401(justin,linbaofa)

mine story have 2 start from primary school as i was a kid.i 4get wen as i did ask my parent about a group of ppls praying while closing their eyes as i don go church unless i got tution at night at church.i was curious as a kid wonder what r they doing n what my parent told me is they are talking 2 god.they are ppls den gonna wash brain,ppls den are crazy 4 god in their life.n all i said is oh oh oh .so i have this thinking 4 christian den "they r nuts,they gonna wash brain."

frm there till sec school,i did nt knw anything about god till i was in sec 3.there 1 group of ppls came 2 our school.they cr8 a cca in our school call "students power club" is a club where u can enjoy urself playing games with ur friends,or watch moives 2gether n they oso invite ppls 2 come n teach us how 2 play baseball,basketball n bring us outing sometimes.at den time,i n my group of friends don really like 2 go as we always after school go n play basketball n we only go 4 basketball training n we learn alots as in how r u going 2 shoot basketball n many more.den i have a friend,jame ask me 2 accompany him go church as he was been invite from 1 of the group of ppl.my anw was ok

i 4get the name of the church but i can remember is a under a company lvl 1 is kindergarden n lvl 6 or 7 is where they worship god.n we wen 2 listen god words.haha but at den time i have this mind set.crazy ppls talking 2 the air (in chinese) but i just follow as i notice my friend was very focus on what they teaching.n i keep follow him every sunday morning meet up n walk over 2 church.till 1 day,they(andrew as 1 of them) told us den they have a special event at lavender.so we went n for me i just follow wat my friend do till they ask were u let god come in ur life.my thinking was " crazy let god come in 0ur life n where were ur soul go"but i did nt said anything n i just follow wat they do.n after the whole things end,andrew n others we knw but i 4get their name.pray 4 us.n ask were we let god come in our life.i was like shit la..ppls in church in really crazy.n i just follow wat my friend do n after den they told us we r christian.back den i feel i was been force 2 accpet it.but nw i think nw is nt.is i just follow XD

n my mind was OMG.i don wan 2b crazy like u all.i don wan 2 let god come in my life as in i though i were gonna wash brain n my soul were go away.n wat were happen 2 me if i tell my parent.i was argh wen we on way home.but den my friend was really fire 4 god.so as a friend,as a brother but i go there is like 1 ear in 1 ear out.so i don care or learn anything.i just follow wat they do.my friend n i keep going till 1 day,my friend said he nt going bcoz tired.n i oso stop going.n den is where my friend n i end our relationship with god.n i don knw anythings about god.my thinking 4 god is still the same.

n after we finish our sec school,we wen 2 ite.n from there is where we start 2 go own way as we in differ class.we don meet often bcoz the time table 4 us is differ.we stimes meet in sat or sun.n in my class i have a friend min chong i think,kinda 4get how 2 spell his name.in our class he the older bcoz he finish his ns before he go n study with us.n till a period of times,we call me father bcoz he keep share with us the god words.my mind was thinking "another crazy person" n we keep disturd him but he don stop sharing with us n surprize me is he invite only me n another close friend,jia hao among the class 2 go church with him.my mind "oh shit,here we go again"

n i just follow around wen ppl ask me 2 go.so we went City Harvest Church at jurong.before my friend n i enter,we wow as the church was so a beautifull den we go toliet 2 have a look..XD after den we take lift 2 basement lvl 4!! this is where i surprize as i 1st time wen 2 chc.alot of ppls at there as in like going 2 watch a movie.pack of ppls.so my mind was " is this a church ? & wow many ppls getting crazy " bcoz got video camera ppls as in like in we going in2 a tv show.and when they worship god.the songs was shocking.

but my friend n i go there is bcoz of wan 2 get 2 knw more gals..XD heehee
n we keep going n wen they ask 4 were we accept jesus in our life.we wen down nt bcoz we accpet jesus but is 2b part of the family 2 get 2 knw gals.
at that time i did nt think of wat going 2 happen 2 me.bcoz my goal is 2 get 2 knw gals den all
but we realise den we r in a mature cellgroup so was kinda sad..XD
as in only my friend n i are 18year olds n the rest of them is above 20 plus.
n wen the whole things finish,we fellowship at top of the roofs of the church.
but den only a few of the members talk 2 us.n we talk awhile den rush home bcoz by the time i reach home is already midnight which most parent don like the most 4 their own child 2b out so late home.but we still go church till 1 day my friend,jia hao said he cannt go bcoz his parent was angry at him 4 wen home late.so i oso did nt bcoz my parent oso.so we stop going 2 church.n oso the same i don knw anythings about god.

after finish my ite,i wen 2 work 4 a few months before i enter NS n was post 2 UAV command.where i knw 2 of my friends,zhen long n yup is a christian.my duty is 2 guard the gate.so we have a times stand 2gether n they both talk about god.so i listen as i don wan 2 get bored.n i find out zhen long was from chc.it remind me back den wen i go church chasing gals.n i just have this feeling.wat is god?why christian ppls were happy most of time?isit bcoz they act or isit they really happy?does they gonna wash brain? alots of questions in my mind.so i were ask zhen long or yup.n there 1 thing n is.since i in ns.i don have anythings 2 do bside standing gate.y don i get a book 2 read so my time in ns were nt wasted.the 1st book i read with focus is bible.bcoz i don like read books bcoz i were feel super sleepy.so i get a book frm zhen long,a small book of new testament.n as i read frm john about how god do this n den 2 ppls.i ask zhen long why this why that.till i ask him how church i think bcoz he told me expor got chc at there as well.

wen he told me expor.i was shock.bcoz i tot expor is if have big event it were held at there but never thought got church at there.so was wow.n at 1st i don dare 2 go bcoz have this weird feeling.mind thinking " go there 4 wat? waste of time,as well do wat u wan 2 do.tml have 2 go back 2 camp don waste ur time go there 4 nthing n so on " but den i realise if i think this way den wat about my friend,zhen long? i stay at sengkang,he stay at bukit babok n our camp at choa chu kang n we go expor 4 church service.so i just went bcoz i oso wish 2 go n have a look at CHC how much they have grow.n again the church surprize me but this time i did nt have den thinking of ppls been crazy n just wan 2 knw wat things make them believe god?

n den is where i start 2 knw more about god.but den time i just a baby christian.i only knw god sent his only son 2 free us from sin.sin is sthing which is wrong without knwing.every1 even myself have this sin.tduring den time,times going well.my dream of bicycle came truth till my cousin.as just bcoz of phone calls, i angry at my church friends n i quarrl with them n told myself i nt going back again.just bcoz of what friends did,i separate frm god.imgaine u love some1 n den person u love left u bcoz sthing happen 2 him/her.is so painfull

but as the time pass ba during army time,i play a game n den is audition bcoz just wan 2 have some friends 2 play 2gether n i get 2 knw a gal which is my godmei,michelle.n i get 2 knw she was frm chc oso as her msn show out chc songs so i ask her mei u frm chc.n den is where i share my problems n my thinking.n she advise me come back 2 church with her.back den,i think can i go back? i make a promise i were nt come back.n were i get hurt again.

n that is sthing come in2 my mind.come back 2 him don bcoz of others den u forsake god n i was told 2 go back 2 my old cg which is nw instead of joining my mei cg.y? reason is simple.bcoz i belong 2 this 2 cg.this is a cg where i knw god.this is my family of knwing god
as time pass i get 2 knw more about god.till there 1 time,i feel bad as i cannt 4gave my church friends hurt me.cant.i ask how am i going 2 4gave them as they hurt me so much.bible said:love ur enemy,i knw but i cant.den sthing came in n said " what about jesus die on the cross? "

n den i realise jesus nt just only free us frm sin but oso experience the pain in everythings in life.wen he die on the cross,the ppls he love is hurting him but he did nt angry or hate them.he love them n ask his father(god) 4gave them 4 they DO NOT KNW.den is where i knw,i did nt tell my church friends what they hurt me n i did nt share with them what they hurt me n i carry this with me den bcome a friend buster den destory friends around me by the the time i realise it,is 2 late.i can choose 2 hide the problems n pretend nthing happen.but wen sthing happen,den things u hide were show up n attack damages more den once.den y i told myself i have 2 stop hate my friends bcoz if god can do den y cant i.don rock the boat wen u knw sthing is wrong.sink it n rebuild a new boat n move.there some more i experience with god.but what about u?

some ppls said christian is 100% gud ppl.who said? god or human?
the anw is no.no1 is perfect in this world.no church is perfect either.
in this world,all the ppls is after 1 thing n den is wat is god.some don believe god is ok.

regarding u r christian or non christian.our god love us even if u don believe.
the difference betweeen christian n non christian is christian wan 2 knw more about god in their life.their purpose in life.what about u? i use 2b like u,the way u think of christian but i find out the anw with others ppls n their help.

don let urself affact wat other ppls said.if i told u how bad a friend of this person,were u believe what i said? or were u go and find out the truth? is all depand on u either u find ur anw or listen what other ppls said.the final decide is urself.=)

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