Well,
Us students have a constant trial that repeats so ever often
in the face of exams
many of us waver in the face of this trial :(
just exactly how many of us have faith that we will pull through this crisis when EVERYTHING else bodes badly?
i personally have recently doubted this faith. it's been so long since i had to worry about anything, but now. today, i had to confess that i felt abandoned.
not physically, but spiritually.
do we really believe that Jesus will make us the head and not the tail?
why is it that it isn't happening?
do we really proclaim that with commitment OR are we just complying to the norm?
remember, Paul denied Jesus 3 times before the cock crowed.
are we going to forsake Jesus at the time of our personal crisis?
how far does our faith brings us?

you know, at the time i received my math paper.
i had no courage to look at it, because i know it was badly done
i wanted to really cry but i could not.
just wanted to give up on everything, all kinds of thoughts went rampaging in my mind.
have you felt that before? i believe all students have
it was not until the period after math then i sorted out my thinking

PE we were made to run 10 rounds,
i tried to use that as my escapeade
however nothing worked except crying out to the Lord whilst on the tracks.
sounds crazy-ish but He really comforted me in the time of my need.
this disappointment is not something that humans can help with,
it is only by super natural grace that you will feel at ease.

it was as though i was conversing with the Lord whilst running.
He asked me about being a "fire cracker" Christian,
He asked me: " Doesn't that apply to your studying style as well?"
i was stumped for Words. when was it that i was so focused on being a leader, on results that i forgot the process for growing up?
it was as though i kept up a facade of being studious during the first few months only to tear it into pieces a few months later.
another question was posed: " Is that how you want to live your life?"
Stumped again, once and again i kept telling people asking them if that is how they want to live their life, but have not been observing my own actions! To persevere and move on, but ironically, i have remained stagnant and proud.
I struggled with my own actions,
wanted to run wild on the track
wanted to give up,
i recalled again that God does sends us trials on our way
to enlarge our capacity
and oh God oh God,
someone once told me that praise is a sacrifice
strange as it may be,
but i started to sing praises to the Lord and really believing it.
He is Jehovah Jirah our provider.

A few phrases to ponder:
He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength. - Isaiah 40:29
Little children, let us not love with word or with tongue, but in deed and truth - 1 john 3 : 18

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